For all the guys reading this, look past some of the lingo I am going to use.  This is your only Warning. 

I am 1 1/2 mo. late on my period, so I went to the doctor today.  She took a urine sample and tested it for the pregnancy hormone.  Well, it came back negative.  She told me that I could still be pregnant, but the hormone not show up in my urine.

She ordered a lab test and I had to go to the hospital and have some blood work drawn.  I waited for 2 1/2 hours and they still didn't call me with the results.  So my mom and I called up there to see what was going on.

My doctor's nurse gave me the bad news:  I wasn't pregnant.  I thought I didn't care either way.  But now that I am sitting here actually thinking about it, it really hurts.  I didn't know that finding out I'm not pregnant would hurt this bad.

I am sitting here going through a mini-stage of depression.  And depression sucks.  I've been there, done that.  Right now, I just wanna isolate myself from the rest of the world and say "F*** it all!"  I want to lock myself in my room and not come out for any reason at all. 

Depression sucks.

Greetings!

A really funny thing happened to me the other night.  I was at summer softball practice when our coach/teammate says "Guys, let's have fun this year and try not to get any injuries."  And what happens to me that night in practice???  I injure my knee running the bases.  It's actually funnier than what it sounds.  It was one of those "you had to be there" moments.

Let's see, anything new I need to post?  Not really.  Work still sucks.  And everything is pretty much the same it's always been. 

The only thing different is it's 16 days until my birthday.  What do I want most for my birthday?  A little respect from those around me.  That would be a good start.  Something else would be my engagement ring I'm supposed to be getting.  I think it's absolutely georgeous!!  Someone please leave me a comment and let me know what you think! 

Well, that's about it for now.  I will post more soon, and I will check periodically for comments about the rings.

Sincerely yours,
~*Tyger*~

Greetings to all!

Ya know, it's days like today that I believe that the way we walk through life is just a mere existance.  I sometimes wonder if we all have a purpose in all this life.  Then I remember everything I was taught at church growing up:  Everyone has a purpose in life.  Sometimes it just takes more time for some to figure it out.

But today, I feel worthless.  I feel that I am just existing in this hellish world.  I feel that I am no good to anyone, and everyone would just be better off if I just dropped off the face of the earth.  But apparently, that isn't going to happen anytime soon.  I don't plan on dying by my own hand.  That's is a fool's way out.  I am going to hold my own and stick around until this wacky world is through with me.

In other news, our area (Southern Illinios) was heavily damaged by "straight-line winds" when most people actually believe that it was tornadoes.  All the damage done clearly points to a tornado, but people in my town is denying it because they didn't sound the tornado sirens.  The storm hit just a few minutes after they issued a Severe Thunderstorm Warning.

One of my friends is a Severe Weather Spotter for EMA (Emergency Management Association) and he got the call and went out spotting.  He actually spotted a tornado.  But like I said before, it "wasn't" a tornado because they didn't sound the warning sirens.  They are all in denial.

Well, I guess I will close this and go back to just existing.  Not too much more exciting to write about.

Be blessed!

~*The Tyger*~

Greetings to all!  It's been a whlie since I've done this, and I am a little out of practice.  It's been just about 8 months since I have posted an entry.  Reason number 1:  I don't have a computer of my own anymore, and I am stuck going to the local college to do all my "internet" stuff.

Not a whole lot has changed.  I am still with my wonderful man.  It's been almost 9 months now.  We've talked a little about marriage, but nothing serious just yet.  No kids yet, and no wedding band just yet.  We're just taking our time.  Which is good because this is the most serious relationship I've ever been in.  And frankly, it scares me. 

Well, since time is limited here at the college if you aren't working on a school project, I must be off.  I will update as soon as I remember.

Sincerely Yours,

~*The Tyger*~